I have spent many years longing for a “calm” Christmas. For as long as my children can remember, there has been some form of chaos cutting through the magic of the holiday season. In many ways, this year is no different. As I sit with this longing, I try to focus on the purpose and […]

Fear and pain are an unpleasant certainty in this thing we call life. If you were to take a look at my left arm these days it would likely look pretty rough.  It’s not uncommon to see red marks, scabs, and bruises.  Most of the bruising is hidden by my skin tone, but I can […]

When I was a little girl my mom made my dad a duffel bag.  Money was tight and he traveled a lot, going on different trips, working with camps and students.  He would go on campouts and all sorts of what I knew of as adventures.  Looking back now, I know that bag wasn’t “fancy” as the standards […]

I have spent so much time over the course of my life wishing someone knew what it felt like to be in my brain.  This constant revolving door of analyzing every single thing I did, but then even in analyzing, feeling like if I had an idea or thought I had to act on it […]

Those that know me best know that my taste in entertainment is extremely vast and extensive, if not some times a little dark and dim.  I tend to shy away from the romantic, “rom-com”, emotional films.  I mostly gravitate towards mystery, thriller, realistic, intense, serious, thought provoking, with a little propensity for Sci Fi thrown […]

Several weeks back I got ask a question that, while I did answer when it was asked I have spent many weeks processing.  I got asked the question, “How do you not hate God?”  Before you jump to conclusions on the question I want to clarify.  It was not asked in the sense that the […]

I am letting my baby go.  As I write that sentence I can’t stop the tears.  Tears of joy, tears of sadness, tears because I am tired and hopeful and scared.  Tears because I don’t know what else really to feel.  From the moment Teagan came home from the hospital there has never been moment […]

Keep it Simple Let’s talk about strokes.  What they are, what they do, how they happened, and can they be prevented.  Strokes simply put are when the brain is damaged in a small or large way because blood flow stopped going from one part of the brain to another.  The brain has to have blood […]

As I walked off the elevator onto the fourth floor I was a little taken aback by the walls.  Where there had once been a brightly colored, open waiting room full of pictures and engaging images, now stood a giant wall.  I don’t like walls.  Especially in a place that you don’t really want to […]

Keep it Simple “So, we need to look into a G-Tube.”  No parent and I mean NO parent looks forward to or wants to have “that” conversation.  I have rarely seen it not met with extreme resistance and questioning.  For some reason having to take this seemingly simple step in your child’s care opens a […]